Everything To Me / Avalon

I love this song because, even though I was not brought up in Sunday school, Jesus is everything to me! When I heard this song I could really relate, but obviously not that part of the song, lol!

I have never known a greater love, He truly fills my loneliness, even though I love my husband more than I can ever say, I still get lonely because our love languages are different, so I don't always feel loved even though, I know he loves me. But when I feel that way, I go to God, I cry out to Him (and seek Him) because it hurts. He fills my loneliness with love, compassion, wholeness and peace!

I am not, at all, saying my husband is not my other half, he is! I know that with all that I am! But Dale can not fulfill all of my needs, I am very needy!! That is putting to much pressure on him, He can not be there for me 24/7. We complete each other but, Jesus has to be my completer before I could ever recognize that Dale is my true love! Because of surrendering my life to Christ(and Jesus becoming everything to me), I know how to love more deeply and He has deepened my love for Dale!! I could not ask for a better guy for me!! So please don't get me wrong! I love and respect Dale highly! I just can't rely on him for my every emotional need! (although, I do forget to seek God sometimes and that is when we have problems! It is a process of seeking Him when I realize and remember to do that, things get better in my heart)

As I seek God, God through Christ fills in the gaps of my completeness. I seek Him, is the key. If I don't seek Him first, He will not always but into my life. But when I surrendered my live to Him, I gave Him permission to but in at anytime. He is my life!

With Resurrection day coming soon, it reminds me so much of what Jesus did for me!

I do, confess with my mouth, Jesus is Lord of my life and believe in my heart God raised Him from the dead. I know Christ died for my sins, I take it to mean= me personally! I know He died for everyone's sins but it is each individual persons decision alone on whether we will accept that gift personally and surrender our life "as an individual" to Him.

Jesus really is more than a story to me, more than just words on a page, He is the air that I breathe and the water I thirst for!)

We are saved by grace through faith, not in or of our self, it is a gift of God not of works lest anyone should boast.

I would love the whole world to know and surrender their life to Christ! It would be such a better place! But Jesus does not want to force people to follow Him!! I am in awe of His sacrifice and love for me! I am very grateful and I want to continue to be transformed into a better person! Transformation into a better person has been and will continue to be a process after my surrender! I don't think I am better than anyone! But I also don't think that people are "better than" me. I am whole and the only one I want to please from my whole heart is God! I can get insecure about myself and things but me, as a person, am no longer insecure as a whole person like I was.